bus

yesterday i had a nice dream. you see i was going somewhere (cant remember where) on a bus and i was sitting with kt. and i was just talking to kt about some problems i've been having. not those trivial day to day stuff but the really macro macro stuff that have been bothering me for the past few days. it felt really good see? because normally i dont talk about stuff like that to people so when i was letting loose to kt it was ermm, sort of refreshing in a weird way. and kt was really nice to me about thee whole thing and kept encouraging me to go on and not give up and all that usual stuff. kt didnt give any solutions but to have a listening ear felt good. J:

win

yesterday night was one of epic win. here's why.

firstly, i watched a few episodes of GantZ which is damn nice. like super nice with a nice theme songs. haha.

then i went to sleep and i had a really cool dream that i was like twenty something and i was hitting on THE kt tunstall in some generic bar with positive results. XD plus i drove her home in my 67 cheverolet ss (my dream car btw lol).

i cant remember how the dream ended. next thing i knew, i woke up and i needed to use the toilet. (it was still night btw). so i turn on the lights in the hall and go inside the kitchen and i switch on all the lights. dundundundunnn. there was a bloody cockroach! on top of the dining table! wth wth. i seriously hate cockroaches. (actually i'm more afraid of them) but that night i was feeling damn braves after hitting on kt tunstall. so i look around for the insecticide. the cockroach was like not moving but moving its feelers around in that really irritating way. so i see the can of insecticide at the other end of the kitchen. i dashed for it. then the cockroach started scurrying down the table towards the hall. i grabbed the can and ran back to kill it. on the way i slipped on one of the slippers my mum keeps in the kitchen and fell down really really really painfully. my ankle like slammed against the chair or something. the cockroach escapes into the hall. i limp out into the hall and i see the cockroach on the wall. k damn easy just spray at it arh. then i walking towards it, suddenly it just started flying towards me arh! what the shit. i ran back into the kitchen like a sissy. the thing flew back onto the kitchen wall arh. then i damn brave just turn around and spam insecticide on it. damn epic battlezxzx.

k lah. i go back to sleep. then i got this dream where i slap a girl in school in front of because she was bullying and being damn bad to my 5 year old cousin. remember that recurrent dream? yayayayaya. then i had to wake up to like eat abit before i start to fast.

then i slept again after awhile arh cos i was damn tired. mind you it was still 6:30 am liddat.
then i had this damn depressing dream. not really damn sad but a damn J: like the feeling you get when something you really want just slips away from your fingers. as absurd as it seemed somehow it felt so real. i guess its true. i am being damn bad to myself.

wadever lah betrayer

actually i'm damn brave arh. its just that like 90% of it is like unseen. so it seems like i damn timid but actually not arh. lol. k lah. i ASkept. its probably not inside me. sekali someone stole it from me or something. aiyaa but i'm damn hand on face now. damn like oh shit what the hell you guy sort of thing.
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i wonder if blogger shows the above thing right.
aiyaa damn bad to me lah. can help me find it can? i'll be like super super super indebted (is this how you spell it?)
AISHETRUZE! yeayeayeayea. no wait. actually i dono for sure lah. lol. hmmmmmmm. aiyaah. just just just damn bad to me. J:

names

ahh well. prelims going to end. technically it'll end like on wednesday because thursday and friday is like mcq papers. hmmm.
for some reason, while i was doing my bio paper 3 i kept thinking what i would name my daughter if i were to have one in the future. funny, i know. but kinda cute. like super advance prep. i couldnt really pick one but i wrote down some of the stuff that entered my mind somewhere so that next time when i look through it, i'll remember how dumb i used to be. haha. whatever.
i keep having a recurring dream for the past few days. more or less recurring. they revolve around the same theme and are remotely linked. something like there's an air raid in singapore. i was going home from school with a friend of mine on a bus. the bus sort of gets hit. i manage to escape but my friend gets injured and cannot walk. so i carry the friend to hospital. meanwhile, my aunt and uncle get killed in the air raid and suddenly i'm left to take care of their super young 4-5 year old daughter because my whole family like disappears after the air raid. so because of that i have to bring my cousin to school everyday because she doesnt want to be left alone at home. and the friend i carried to hospital starts to help me out alot. hmmm. soo creepy. ahh well.

kt tunstall's album, drastic fantastic is coming out this week i think. i want to go buy it when i have the time.

okae. i guess i'll head down to 4chan's /b/ board and waste an hour of my life before i go do some work.

omg its kt tunstall! she's releasing a new album soon! i'm going to buy it. omg omg omg.

J:

you know, the irritating thing about a really good yet sad book/movie/tv show is that you really wish the bad stuff didnt happen. but the problem is, if you do change it, the book/movie/tv show wont be really good anymore.
man, i'm just so sad these days. J: